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Monday, August 12, 2013

Gratitude From Pageant Cast Members: The Faber Family

We really enjoyed our time in the Nauvoo Pageant and the energy the YPMS brought to everything. We were especially grateful with the way you welcomed our son's two non-member college age friends, Jasmine and Nathaniel.  I will be in contact with both of them and continue the invitation which you helped start. 

A special thanks to Elder Leavitt and Sister Shaffer for being a part of our family on stage.  If you ever pass through Bountiful, UT, stop by and say hello if you have a moment.

Tony and Anne Faber and Family

A Note of Thanks From a Visitor: Jenny Oaks Baker

I was so thrilled by the performances of the young performing missionaries while I was in Nauvoo a couple of weeks ago. I was amazed by their excellent musical talents and very uplifted by their testimonies. I am so grateful that the Church recognizes the power of good music to touch hearts and bring people closer to Christ.  I am also grateful for the generosity  of such talented performers to give of their talents to build the Kingdom.  I was truly inspired!

Fondly,

Jenny Oaks Baker

Sunday, July 28, 2013

The Power of An Apostle

This last week Elder Dallin H. Oaks from the quorum of the twelve was here in Nauvoo visiting with his family. On Thursday morning he came to the Trail of Hope. It was a really wonderful experience to see his whole family. He is such an amazing influence for light. After I was finished with the Editors Vignette he said in his booming voice: "Well Done". Then he shook my hand. Upon grasping his hand I felt such a strong force of light enter into my body. It was so interesting for me to learn about light and how being a righteous vessel of the Lord can make other people's countenances beam. He was also able to come to some of the other shows here in Nauvoo and he just being there made everyones day a little brighter. Not to mention he brought the good weather with him. The whole week he was here the temperature stayed in the mid 70's... which is unheard of for mid -July in Nauvoo, IL. It was miraculous

All My Love

I can't believe time is winding down so fast!!  We have one more week of the Nauvoo Pageant, and then one more week of our other shows after that...and then we are finished.  I cried again yesterday as I said goodbye to another family from the family cast at Pageant.  Every week has a new set of families, and every Saturday we say goodbye.  Little Avey Shulz tugged on my pants as I was walking away and said "I'm really going to miss you, Elder Partridge."

Gosh, love is hard stuff.

Speaking of love, I have received a new insight.  With this group becoming as close as we are, the mission rules can sometimes be looked at as a burden or an annoyance rather than a blessing to keep.  We all just want to hug each other and play games and have parties and stay up late!  It has been hard sometimes to stay focused on the Now and not start planning all the fun things we will do when we get home.  I've been praying to have a greater understanding of the doctrines of why God gives us different lifestyles to live for different lengths of time...rather than just giving all of us the same laws and expectations all the time. Missionaries, Bishops, Young Men's Presidents, Apostles...they all abide by slightly different rules and regulations.  Why?

I am beginning to understand one of the reasons for being obedient to such laws that seem so temporal.  In this mission, a lot of the mission rules just seem to be ways to inhibit us from showing our love and appreciation for each other the ways that we are accustomed to doing.  I have come to understand that in not being able to sit alone with a sister or to pick up little children, the Lord has caused me to find new and creative ways within my capacity, to act on the charity I am filled with for the people around me.  I believe that with every new lifestyle we are asked to live for a period of time, comes an opportunity to learn new ways to love...and that our Heavenly Father will continue to call us to new lifestyles until we have eventually learned all the ways to love...and have perfect charity!  Each time we choose not to be obedient to those laws that He gives us, we forfeit an opportunity to become more diversely charitable.

I am grateful for all the ways that God has expanded my ability to love while I have been here in Nauvoo.  He has helped my spirit to grow and contain more than I ever have been able to before.  I cannot wait to see how the new chapters in my life will help me to express the love that I so often feel is building up inside me, but is too great to be effectively expressed.  I know one day, I will be able to express all the love within my heart, with the help of my God.

The Miraculous Simplicity of Prayer

Singing upwards of 5-8 hours a day, six days a week tends to be a little bit strenuous on vocal chords.  So far this year, many of the Young Performing Missionaries have had the misfortune of losing their voices for a period of a few days.  Unfortunately, I didn't end the summer unscathed as i had hoped.  A few days ago, I woke up hardly being able to speak, let alone sing.  So, all day long I had simply planned on having my companion, Elder Collier, take my role and sing my solos during our performance of "High Hopes and River Boats," our main production.  The time came for the show, and I had already informed Elder Collier and our director of my decision to do a lesser role during both of the two performances that day.  However, as i spoke with Elder Collier literally moments before the show began, we decided that having him take on the role for me didn't feel quite right, so we made the last minute change with a prayer that I would at least be able to find the right notes during my solos.

Well, the show passed by, and actually turned out to be a rather good performance from the entire cast overall.  The show had a very good feel to it, and I was happy to have seen my prayer answered in a very real and specific way.  I was even more grateful that we had listened to the spirit when I heard of the miracle that had taken place while we were onstage.

As i was in the lobby of the Visitor's Center after the show, greeting our guests, I was approached by a young man.  He introduced himself to me, and thanked me for the spirit that he had felt during the performance.  I asked him a few questions about himself, and quickly realized that this 14 year old young man had been going through many hard things at that particular stage of his life.

He told me of doubts that he had been experiencing, and the toll that they were taking on his personal testimony of the church.  He had been attending a different church for quite some time, and told me that three weeks from now, he had planned on getting baptized into that particular congregation because of what he felt.  However, watching "High Hopes" had caused him to rethink that decision.

As we conversed further, he informed me that the main reason he had felt the spirit so powerfully during the musical was because of the way that he personally identified with Chance, the character that I portray.  He felt a personal connection to Chance because of his conversion process that the show depicts.  In my new friend's words: "Chance had many of the same questions that I have.  And when he started to feel the spirit, so did I."

As I looked that young man in the eyes, tears filled my own.  I proceeded to tell him of a boy his exact same age, 14 years old, that had a question very similar to his.  That young boy wondered which of all the churches he should join.  Searching the bible for answer to his question, young Joseph found an admonition in the book of James, first chapter, fifth verse which reads: "If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him."  Demonstrating immense faith, Joseph acted on that admonition and entered a grove of trees near his home and prayed to God for a knowledge of which of all the churches was right.  In the form of a visit from Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ, the prayer of Joseph Smith was answered.  

I shared with my young friend my own personal testimony of the restored gospel of Jesus Christ.  I also issued him two very specific challenges.  I shared with him a general conference talk that changed the course of my mission in Brazil titled "Faith - The Choice is Yours" given by Bishop Richard C. Edgely in the October 2010 conference.  I asked him to read it, because it helped me to understand as Bishop Edgely so eloquently stated:  "While I don't know everything, I know what's important".  I also told him of one of my favorite spots in Nauvoo- the grove of trees that lies at the end of Parley Street.  I challenged him to go to the grove later that day, to kneel down, and to offer up his own prayer to Heavenly Father asking for a confirmation as the the things he had felt earlier during the show.  I promised him that if he did, he would receive his answer.  He promised me that he would.

Later that evening, as I was conversing with people before the Nauvoo Pageant began, I was approached by a man with whom I had never spoken before.  He asked me if I was the Elder Thunell that had played in "High Hopes" earlier that day (and he pronounced my name correctly, which means he was definitely familiar with who I was).  When I told him that I was, tears immediately filled his eyes, and he proceeded to thank me for a miracle that had happened that day in his family.  It was then that I found out that he was the father of the young man I had met earlier in the day.

This family had come to Nauvoo with the prayer that their youngest son could have an experience that would reaffirm his forgotten faith and change his life.  And, as this grateful man stated, "Our prayer was answered when a servant of the Lord acted on the spirit and invited a young man to pray."  I was so grateful to find out that my friend had taken my challenge seriously, and acted on almost immediately upon leaving the Visitor's Center after our conversation.  On a warm July afternoon that young man, searching for answers, entered a grove of trees at the end of Parley Street on the banks of the Mississippi River and offered a prayer to God...

...And received his answer.

I know for myself that our loving Father-in-Heaven is very mindful of his children.  He knows us each by name, and He puts people and experiences in our path so that we might come to know Him.  He truly does hear each and every one of our prayers, and he longs to answer them.  He knows me.  He loves me.  And there isn't a more comforting thought in all the world.

Monday, July 22, 2013

The Ballroom

Inline image 1On the third floor of the Cultural Hall is the original ballroom floor from the 1840's. It is one of my most favorite places here in Nauvoo. The spirit that I feel in that room alone compares to the Temple. The acoustics in that room is impeccable. Some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard was in that ballroom.  This last week some of my friends from home were able to be here in Nauvoo. One of my dear friends is obsessed with acoustics and the concept of sound. The Young Performing Missionaries went up to the ballroom with our guests and sang together "Invocation". The spirit that swept over that room was indescribable. "there shall he be in the midst of them that love him". As we were in a circle of missionaries and close friends, I felt the spirit bear witness to me of the love that God has for all of his children. As we sang in perfect harmony, I had chills run over my body and a very warm feeling of light entered the room.  As Missionaries we have the unique opportunity to bear testimony of that Love through music. I will never forget that experience of pure testimony and love as music pulsated through my body. 

An Invitation To The Truth

Things just keep going like they always do here in Nauvoo, the Young Performing missionaries perform morning til night and love every minute of it.  I actually had a really neat experience when I was in town on Thursday.  My companion wanted to try shopping at a different store than we normally do so we went there and while we were there started talking to a man working in the produce section and had a great conversation about truth and he said something really profound about how each person in the world deserves the chance to first hear truth and then decide for themselves if they will accept it or not.  That is an amazing thing to hear from someone when you are a missionary because its a great segue into a gospel conversation.  We took the chance and I actually ended up being able to give the man a book of Mormon and we got his contact information to give to the missionaries in Keokuk so they can teach him.  It was an amazing testimony of how the Lord puts us into people's paths to share the gospel with them and extend an invitation to the truth.  I've had so many similar experiences with the Lord either placing me or placing others so we cross paths this summer and it has been such a blessing to be able to talk and I know I have grown and been uplifted so many times just when I need it according to the Lord's perfect timing and His tender mercies.  Yes, I know Heavenly Father loves me!

Well we're sadly winding down on our time here we've only got 3 weeks left before we have finished our calls and have to say good-bye to the city of Joseph, but its been an amazing summer and I'm sure there is still much good left to come.

Yay for Nauvoo!

I want to share something I have written down in my journal. Sadly, I didn't think of it, and unfortunately I can't remember where I heard it... or who said it.... But it goes like this:
     "If it weren't for God, we wouldn't be here. If it weren't for Jesus Christ, it wouldn't matter. If it weren't for Joseph Smith, we wouldn't know."
Cool, right? And so true! With God, we have a purpose, to learn and become more like Him and to one day live with Him. Because Christ atoned for our sins, we can repent and continue to move towards that goal. Because of Joseph Smith, we have the restored gospel and all of the blessings that go with it, including the knowledge of the plan of salvation and that families can be together forever. What a glorious plan our Father has made for us! I'm so grateful that I was raised in the gospel so I could know it, live it, love it, and share it! Hurrah for Israel and yay for Nauvoo! I feel like I learn so much about the gospel and my Savior as I learn about the Saints and Brother Joseph... I tell their stories, I walk where they walked... and they walked with the Savior. It all fits together, hand in hand. There are no such things as coincidences. I love it!

Sometmes We Laugh

I am always so amused by the way the culture of a group changes over time...especially when they spend as much time together as our group does.  Just in case you will be interacting with any of us after this mission, you may want to know the explanation behind some of the things that have just become common among the stage/tech YPMs:

- When we are about to do something epic and need good motivation, we shout "For Alex!!!"  (...None of us actually met Alex, but he is one of Sister Klingler's friends.)
- When we have done something really stupid or crazy, we may turn to you with wild eyes and ask "Am I NUTS?"  (Sister Allen got us all started on that one...she's pretty nuts.)
- Phragming is one of the most insulting things you can do to a person (but we do it all the time to each other).  'Phragm' is short for diaphragm.  It means to hit someone with your diaphragm.  Believe me, after all the singing we've done, my phragm packs a pretty powerful punch.  (Really no back-story to that except that Elder Striplin and I are dorks.)
- There is a general slew of phrases that any of us will say on a moment's notice that is a line from a show...when we hear the cue line, we just feel empty if we don't say what's next!
- When you go for a high five, you may suddenly find yourself in a handshake.  (Because high-fives are WAY too familiar.)
- You will always find a counterargument if you say that something is the worst.  It is not the worst, because animal crackers are the worst.  End of discussion.  (The sisters just won't let Elder Striplin live his accent down.)
- If you try to get us to do something we don't want to do, we will give a high-pitched squealing "Make me!!"  (Modeled after the rebellious Sister Jorgensen.)
- Whenever it's time to go, we will yell "Time to go, time to go, woo-woo-woo-woo, time to go, time to go!" (I started doing that so everyone would hear me, and it just caught on.)
- If you tell a cheesy joke, we will bring our hand up like a sock puppet, and have it give you a roaring pity laugh.  (Every day we do a puppet show where the puppets tell ridiculously corny jokes.)
- If you make a reference to any kind of bag, satchel, purse, etc., we'll probably give you a really deep-voiced "they're bags!"  (A line from the show, modeled after Elder Black.)
- Whenever we or someone near us is confused, we will probably ask, "Am I here?"  (Once upon a time, Elder Collier forgot his words during a solo love song...and replaced about ten words with a long "Am I here?"  Probably the single-most funny thing that has happened on stage to date.)
- When we are very proud of ourselves, we put our hands in our armpits and smile.  (A Sister Elbert mannerism.)
- When we are appalled, we will shout out "Well I neverrrrr!"  (A line from a show, modeled after Sister Elbert.)
- When we want to sound refined, we talk like the pharaoh from Night at the Museum 2.

....Now I need to say something inspiring before I end.... I know that when we all work together in harmony we will all start become the same ridiculous person?  ...Eh, maybe not.  But I do know that where the Spirit is, there will laughter be also.  I believe that God is a God of laughter; beautiful, wondrous, joyous, wholesome laughter.  I am grateful for that.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

The Work Rolls On!

The spirit of Nauvoo is always the same and always wonderful. I absolutely love how I am constantly inspired to do better and to be better than I am.  I have experience after experience where I am humbled and taught that I can do better, be more patient with myself and others, seek the Lord more through prayers, and as Elder Camp says "step into the darkness" through faith trusting that the Lord will bless and guide.

One experience that I had with this was before pageant Friday night where I ran into a great friend from home, Elder Aiden Curtis.  I had known that he was assigned to the pageant, but didn't know when I would find him.  I was keeping an eye out for him, but felt guilty looking for him specifically because I am supposed to be focusing on missionary work because the time before pageant is intended for us to try and find referrals from the guests.  So as I was walking around I was suddenly nearly tackled to the ground by Elder Curtis who had seen me first and we had a joyful reunion.  It was so good to see him.  After that though it was back to work!  I had a goal to at least get one referral that day, so I went up to Sister Hall, one of the Nauvoo Young Sister Missionaries and told her I trusted her inspiration and asked who I should go talk to for a referral.  She pointed to a group of girls and my immediate reaction was one of hesitancy, but I pushed those thoughts aside, got Elder Leavitt and walked up to say hello and talk to them.  We got into a conversation with them about a mission activity their stake had done where they basically turned their youth into a mini mission for a weekend, assigning everyone companions and they set up appointments with their non-member friends to teach them lessons from preach my gospel.  This provided a perfect opportunity for some of them to fill out referral cards for those friends they had worked with in that activity.  So moral of the story, guided by the spirit, through simple means and then opening my mouth in a friendly conversation about sharing the gospel I was able to invite two from that group of girls to have the gospel shared with their friends and bore testimony to them that our work is a work of Love,  Christ's love. (Side note:  Another thing I learned while bearing my testimony a few weeks back was that Charity, the pure love of Christ has 3 parts- Love from Christ, Love for Christ, and Love like Christ.  Just thought I would share that because it fit right in with the conversation I was able to have with a few of the other guests from pageant.) 

The work rolls on in beautiful Nauvoo!  I'm so blessed to be here and be a part of it.

Loving Unconditonally

 As you probably well know, the YPMs here in Nauvoo have the opportunity to meet a lot of people. The people that come to Nauvoo all have their different reasons why they came and are all very unique. I have enjoyed being able to see and talk to random visitors learning why they came to Nauvoo, what they are looking for, or just getting to know them. 
     It seem like every person that I see here in Nauvoo I love. It makes me think about what the Savior must have been like, even though I still have a lot to work on. He loved everyone more than we can possibly imagine. Jesus loved even the people that hated Him and hurt Him he enough to still teach, heal, and even die for them even if they did not understand what He was doing or why He was doing it.
     Nauvoo is probably one of the best places to just feel love from everyone around you. It is sad that the rest of the world is slowly becoming more selfish, and unloving. We should strive, especially as members of the church, to turn this trend around. Conflicts between people are like a paper cut, if you take care of the wound and clean in than it will still be there for a little bit until time heals it, but if you don't fix it then more dirt and grime will get into the cut making it worse increasing the pain and time that it will take to heal once you decide to clean it. If there is a problem between you and someone fix it now, don't let it fester and grow worse.

Know that I love you, whoever you are that reads this.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

The Sacred Trail Of Hope

The Trail of Hope...wow-powerful, this is a series of vignettes we do at 12 stations down the trail that the Saints used to leave Nauvoo (it heads right to the Mississippi River).  It takes place at night by torch light and is fascinating.  At each station we reenact the journal entries of those who left Nauvoo and headed West.  The Spirit of sacrifice is everywhere.  Some of my most sacred and peaceful moments have happened there as we wait for and testify to groups of the reality of the Savior and these people's experiences.

I Love Nauvoo

Things I Love That Happen Frequently In Nauvoo:

- I love singing "of a living prophet" into the eyes of Sister McAllister and Sister Spittle.
- I love Elder Striplin's ridiculous "I've just discovered something awesome" face.
- I love pursuing and then being pursued by Sister Shaffer during 'Riverboats A Comin' and 'The Nauvoo Whoop-De-Do.'
- I love that whenever I'm looking for Elder Leavitt and Elder DeWaal at home, 70% of the time I find them praying.
- I love the moment right before Sister Porter and I run on stage at the beginning of High Hopes and River Boats; all I feel is love and faith.
- I love that my cup appears out of nowhere filled with water during lunch...along with a sneaky Elder Black.
- I love watching Sister Corkin be baptized for those who have passed on.  I know the angels are rejoicing.
- I love how genuine Elder Nelson's hugs are.
- I love watching Sister Jorgensen whip her head around and say "But she really didn't!"
- I love seeing how high Elder Thunell's backflips are getting.
- I love fighting with Sister Welch while we waltz.
- I love when Elder Scott is testifying to visitors about the miracle of the quail.
- I love when Sister Allen yells "Am I nuts??"
- I love that when people are feeling stressed and overworked, Elder Collier knows just what to say.
- I love that when I feel the presence of angels, I usually see Sister Smith praying.
- I love watching Elder Anderson just walk past, quietly doing more work than anyone else.
- I love finding Sister Klingler reading the scriptures back stage.
- I love the silly faces Sister Osorio makes at me during Sunset By the Mississippi.
- I love the face Elder Mortensen makes at me every time he has to be patient because I did something stupid.
- I love making eye contact with Sister Elbert during Just Plain Anna Amanda.
- I love when Elder Davis runs in screaming with a day cap on.
- I love it when Sister Camp gives us a thumbs-up after we sing Golden Dream.
- I love being millimeters from Sister Shaffer's face while she tries to ignore me completely.
- I love it when Elder Camp says "Bangarang!"
- I love clogging with Sister McAllister.
- I love that most any time I feel a hand on my shoulder, I look up and see Elder DeWaal.
- I love catching Sister Spittle before she falls off the stage.
- I love watching Elder Nelson demonstrate how the cricket fiddles.
- I love receiving new counsel from a leader and watching Sister Corkin be faithfully obedient.
- I love it when Elder Leavitt hits me, points at his companion, and says "Who is that guy?"
- I love how powerfully Sister Porter bears her testimony.
- I love how humble and selfless Elder Black's prayers are.
- I love it when we gather together as a group of missionaries and sing 'Invocation' as one.

Catching Fireflies

July 4th is my favorite holiday. I love the festivities, parades & fireworks, barbecues, and all sorts of laughter that happens. But most of all, I love it because it is a holiday that you can spend outside in the beautiful sunshine with everyone. I was so grateful to spend the day with my Nauvoo family and sing, dance, laugh, and eat delicious hamburgers (shout out to the Meyers!). My favorite moment of the day was when we gathered around a tall oak tree on Main St. to practice Youth Of Zion. Twilight was settling in, you could hear the distant thunder of fireworks, and the fireflies were resplendent. Because I'm not in YOZ, I got to have a free moment where I could soak in the beauty of Nauvoo and the splendors of a special day. Sister Jorgensen and I let loose and ran through a small grove of trees and caught fireflies in our hands. That short time of freedom and innocent laughter brought me happiness I cannot describe. So often do we forget to be simple, and just enjoy life! Even in the Nauvoo bubble where missionaries wear pioneer clothes we can get caught up in a hectic schedule and forget to breathe in our surroundings and love life. This was taken out of a journal entry on June 17:

Oh how beautiful, the glory of God. We witnessed His love for us in the form of the most stunning sunset I have ever laid eyes on. The majesty that was painted around Nauvoo testified of the glory and power of our Lord. As I beheld my surroundings and the beautiful, colorful canvas that filled the sky, I felt of the love the Lord has for me...I had been searching to find peace, but didn't realize I was blessed with the ability to find the beauty in all things and feel of Gods love that way. I've spent so much of my time walking with my head down. Instead of worrying about not tripping over my feet, I need to look up and feel the love.

This week, as our schedule gets absolutely crazy, my goal is to find peace in my beautiful surroundings. What better way is there to recognize the love of God than to soak in the beauty of His creations.

Sunday, June 30, 2013

To Be or Not To Be

One of the lines we use in one of our skits during Sunset on the Mississippi is a modified quote from Shakespeare "Is he to be... or not to be?" I've pondered this statement multiple times in my life and each time something new comes up it grants greater light on my questioning.  There is a process in all things, a divine order, and there are two that I connect with this statement.  The first comes from a statement by Elder Richard G. Scott of the quorum of the twelve apostles where he says that the things we consistently think determine what we do, and the things we consistently do determine what we become.  The other is a well discussed simple sequence of Good, Better, and Best.  To tie those two together, if we think about good things, then do good things, we'll become good.  That is a wonderful start (and don't be overwhelmed because this start still takes a lot of work to achieve) We then can begin thinking better things, doing better, and becoming better and so on and so forth until we are the best. This is a principle that is true in day to day life, be it playing soccer, a musical instrument, an art form, an occupation, or any hobby really.  It can also be applied to spiritual things such as our prayers, our character, our desires, our commitments to God and to the gospel. So where does my initial question come in to all this becoming?  Well it all boils down to this- you decide what it is you want to be.  I decide if I'm going to become the worlds best ____ (insert anything here). It begins with a decision, a thought and there the seeds of being are planted.  As you act on those seed-thoughts they develop and grow into habits and eventually they are simply a part of your being and you find fulfillment of the initial faith you had in acting on that first thought, that basic desire.  So ask yourself, what do I wish I could be? What do I want to be? Then start doing the things that the person you want to be would do, make habits of them until one day you wake up and realize that for the past while you've been doing them without thought, you realize that you are.  This is a miraculous process and God wants you to accomplish great things using this pattern, He will help you with it as well!  Include in Him in every stage and He will help you, He won't do it for you because you don't change anything without work, but He will help with support, ideas, motivation and teaching.  So use the gospel fundamentals of prayer, scripture study, and obedience to receive that help in becoming who you want to be.  You'll be glad you did.


I can't believe we're on the downward slope of time until the end of our Nauvoo experience.There have been so many experiences that remind me every day to cherish every minute, every second here because change is constant, we have to be so flexible, but I know thats the Lord preparing us to be better tools for Him ready to work in every situation.

Everyone Can Be A Member

It is amazing how non members can hide the fact that they are not members from people. On the other hand they are not hiding but usually just look like they would be perfect members and it rarely crosses my mind that they are not members until I hear their responses to questions. I feel that just boosts my spirits to know that non members do come to our shows, and that I can see everyone as being a member. That just increases my desire to help the individuals that are not members come to see the beauty of the restored gospel. I really enjoy moments when I know that there is a non member in the audience because I feel so excited and hopeful for them that they will find what they are looking for, or at least have a seed of the spirit planted in their hearts.

You Are My Sunshine

I feel somewhat left out that I didn't receive any emails this week, but it makes sense because my family is here with me. And how blessed that is! But because I have the time, I will tell you all that has happened in the past while. Our dear Sister Allen is being sent home. After many prayers and blessings and discussions, our directors and the mission president feel that it is best for Sister Allen to receive the medical attention she needs, at home. I've gotten to know Sister Allen quite well- we share a room and is my counterpart in all the shows. I don't think the reality of her leaving has settled in yet, which terrifies me because some of us (myself included) were a total mess when she announced it just 2 hours ago. We had a moment of hugging and crying and then we all gathered on the stage in a circle and sang 'Invocation'. Sister Allen had one request- that we sing 'You Are My Sunshine'. We have a fun rendition we sing in Nauvoo Singers, and it is kind of a running joke because at least our cast sings it at least 5 times every day. It's our go-to song. How beautiful it was to sing to each other the words that now carry so much meaning for our group:

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you,
Please don't take my sunshine away

You're my ever-lovin' sunshine, you're the one for me!
You make me happy oh so happy when skies are gray and by the way
You'll never know how much I love you, how much I love you everyday,
please don't take my sunshine away

Sister Allen requested that we have a testimony meeting. It was wonderful to hear the beautiful and strong testimonies of everyone in this group. We are so strong in the faith. We know that Heavenly Father lives and loves us. I know that faith brings us peace and comfort. I know that as we have faith in the Lords timing and plan for us, we will be able to do whatever he asks of us, even when we are weak. I know that we are here for a purpose, and I am so grateful Sister Allen was to be with us for a short time. We have learned so much from her. Most importantly, how to be selfless.
As our group loses a beloved friend, our sunshine, and our source of laughter, we face an unknown future. The schedule is only about to become harder with pageant here. New parts are to be learned, and dances are to be re-choreographed. But if there's one thing I've learned about this special group of YPMs is that we have the ability to accept change wholeheartedly. A moment is never spent complaining about our circumstances, whatever they may be. When we unite ourselves with each other and with the Lord, we are steadfast, immovable, and fine tuned instruments in the Lords hands. I am not afraid, because this is the Lords work. And He is in charge. And His timing and plan for us is perfect.

We'll find the place, which God for us prepared
far away, in the West.
Where none shall come, to hurt or make afraid,
there the Saints will be blessed.
But if our lives are spared again, 
to see the Saints, our rest obtain,
oh how we'll make this chorus swell,
All is well! All is well!

Nauvoo comes Alive!!!

Surrounded by a huge field of wheat, with the wind gently blowing back and forth, it is easy to feel the Love of God. As I stood out a little ways off Parley street. the setting was perfect. The clouds were absolutely perfection and it was as if God himself painted a picture in the sky for us. The sunset was in a perfect array of orange, pink and yellow, with a faded blue atmosphere to top it all off. 

It was so poignant to me as I stood in that field of wheat that although I am not perfect, as long as I do the BEST that I can and Love much, I have a loving Heavenly Father who will make up the difference. I am so touched at how forgiving and merciful God is. His timing is perfect and his miracles many. Many more than the human brain could possibly even imagine. He guides us as we trust in Him and have faith that all will work out for the better. My testimony is constantly strengthened as I see His hand in my life EVERY DAY!   

This week while I was talking to a senior missionary and he mentioned that he was from Genola. This is a small little city where my dad grew up as a boy. Come to find out, they were neighbors. It was such a wonderful coincidence. He told me of stories about my grandparents and more specifically about my grandfather. Turns out that my grandpa and this senior missionary's father were in a barbershop quartet together. I was told stories about how my grandfather would sing so beautifully and so in tune. They said that when he would sing he would sing with his eyes closed so he could hear the tightness of the harmonies. Today in church, we as Young Performing Missionaries sang a song for a special musical number. I prayed that Grandpa Davis would be there singing along side of me. As I sang, not only could I feel his spirit, but it was almost as if I could hear his voice. After the meeting, I was talking to the senior missionary again. He said that my grandpa would be very proud. I told him that I prayed him there to sing with us. The senior Elder said that he could picture him up there singing right along with his eyes closed and everything. I love that picture so much. I love my family and I learn a great lesson from my grandfather. We always need to listen and try to hear the voices of others so that we are more in tune. And in life, it always helps if we listen to the Holy Ghost. Then we will always be in tune.

The Nauvoo Pageant got here this last week. I am so excited to dance in Pageant. What a wonderful and marvelous opportunity to bear pure testimony on stage as I dance my lil' heart out. Pure joy was that of the saints of old. Their Love for Nauvoo is present just by the spirit that one feels here. It will be miraculous to witness the miracles that are bound to happen as this production of testimony comes together!

Things I Never Thought I'd Do In Nauvoo

- Be in a (HUGE) ward made up of nothing but missionaries and visitors.  Talk about a prime conversion spot!

- Hug a sister missionary...as an elder...upwards of 4 times every day.

- Have nine people watch, entranced, as I got a haircut.  Apparently with my hair getting as big as it was, it was a pretty big deal!  We were trying to rehearse, but once the razor started, nothing else happened.  ....Weird.

- Keep on voluntarily falling down in various ways every day, despite the deep and painful bruises I've accumulated that just don't go away!

- Cry pretty much every day without fail.

- Clog in front of hundreds of people, successfully!

- Write in my journal every day (thank you, Kelby!).

- Shave my legs.  And then keep shaving them.  All summer.  (By the way, I haven't cut myself once yet!)

Wow, things just got really awkward.  Umm....see you next week!

My Savior Lives

I just wanted to write something on the blog since everyone keeps telling me I'm the only one who hasn't yet :P haha. I want to share my testimony that I know this gospel is true. My testimony is simple...and every time I think of my "testimony" all I can think of is my Savior. I know Jesus Christ lives. I know He loves me and loves every single one of God's children. I know because of Him I never have to be alone and that I can always be forgiven of my sins. He will always love me and is always reaching out to us. He understands me and knows me better then I know my own self. I know that Joseph Smith was and is a Prophet of God. He was faithful to the end. I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God. I know that God answers prayers. I am learning how He speaks to me and learning how to be patient in His perfect timing. I know He is SO mindful of us. ...My thoughts are all over the place because I just keep thinking of so much about this gospel that I know to be true. The gospel is true. God lives. However, since I dont have enough time on the computer to really write everything I want to I will just say that I love my Savior. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for letting me come here to Nauvoo and deeply touched He would call me to be His servant. I love the Lord. I know that if we follow His commandments and do His will that we will be the happiest we ever can possibly be. God is so good :) I love Him! And I love this work! There is truly no greater joy then helping bring people to Christ. 

51 More Days

I think I can say that one of the biggest lessons of this week has been that the Lord prepares us constantly.  He prepares us for blessings by sending us trials and then uses those blessings to prepare us for additional trials.  This week we've had a lot of people getting sick and a little under the weather, some out completely, so its been interesting to make things come together without the whole group, but they always did.  Yesterday we we blessed to have our whole group on deck for our shows which marked our half-way point for the Summer, we only have 51 more days left of Nauvoo before we have to come off this cloud we get to live on for these few months.  In light of that, Elder Camp invited us to examine ourselves individually and see how we could rise to a new level of commitment to missionary work for the last 51 days and as part of that the Tech Sisters suggested a great idea that we use our time back stage to spiritually prepare ourselves between scenes.  The show turned out phenomenal.  Elder Camp even gave us a standing ovation, which is a really big deal for him because he can count on a single hand the number of times its happened for any show, not just in Nauvoo.  It was wonderful to know that they Lord answered our prayers and gives us what we need to be able to invite the spirit and bless the guests that come. The next big blessing of the day was one of the Sisters in the band received her mission call to Mexico City and we had our traditional mission call opening extravaganza at the seventies hall which is always wonderful.  All of these blessings were definitely a preparation for the news that came next.  We found out that one of the YPM's lost their step-father in a plane accident that also left a brother with serious, though not critical injuries, that would hinder his growth for the rest of his life.  I was so impressed by the missionary though because they stood and with unmatched faith and confidence in the plan of salvation, the blessings of eternal families, and the temple, bore firm testimony of the gospel and those principles that allowed what would otherwise be a tragedy to be a moment of joy because a good man was going home to our Father in Heaven.  It was so inspired by the faith and conviction of that missionary and it really caused me to reflect on how quickly life changes and how the only way to truly be prepared is to constantly be living the best we can, focusing on the things of greatest importance.  I'm so grateful that I have this same testimony that our Savior and His church provide the knowledge and truth that families can be together forever.  I know this church is true, because of the peace and confidence that can be felt through the Holy Ghost in times of trial and testing.  I am so grateful for the blessings that Heavenly Father has in store for all of us.

Trials Bring Forth Blessings!

This week has been wonderful and has lead me to ask a lot of questions. But all of those questions has lead me to receive revelation as to why God lets things happen. And also to try to differentiate between a loving Father in Heaven who allows trials to come upon us and a God full of Mercy who wants us to learn by giving us the opportunities to grow through struggles. I know that both ring true in some instances. This last week was a week full of trials; personally trying to dig deep into myself  and find out different ways that I can look outward so that I can more fully serve those around me and also trails that affect our group such as sickness, and even death.

I have found myself a lot asking the question, WHY? We have been called to do such a work. Why would be be presented with trials that would make it difficult for us to perform our calling? I have come to the conclusion that not only does Heavenly Father need servants who have been called, but servants who are willing to change and be used to accomplish a specific purpose. I have come to think about why Joseph Smith and even more so, Emma, went through so much trial. It was to give them experience so that they could press forth with faith.


Whenever we experience trial and opposition, we have the choice to make the best of it, or to make it a negative experience. As we choose to be righteous in our actions the Lord pours his richest blessings upon us.  This week we were challenged by a priesthood leader to "prove in all things." My testimony is strengthened everyday when I see that I have influence for wondrous things when I am perfectly in tune with the Spirit. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is so true. I know that I have a God and Creator above who loves me. I know it with my whole HEART! Oh how great this calling! 

Let The Spirit Guide You

So on Saturday after doing Nauvoo Singers we were heading back for lunch when I saw a man standing by himself outside of the Cultural Hall. I felt like I needed to go and talk to him so I asked how he like the show. (The other Anna Amanda cast had just finished performing.) He said that he enjoyed the show and began to talk about how hot and humid it was . I wanted to go on my way to lunch because it was scorching hot because I was in my huge pioneer dress but I felt prompted to ask him what brought him to Nauvoo. He told me it was because of the spirit he felt here and that he was a convert to the church. I asked him if he would tell me his conversion story and he agreed after I insisted that it would be alright if I was late for lunch. I quickly grabbed one of the sisters to listen with me and he told his 5 minute story to me. What's amazing is being from Canada, I didn't even feel the heat during his story; I was too invested. It was amazing. He had turned away about 4 sets of missionaries until his wife felt the spirit so strongly during a message they shared about eternal families that she wanted to know more. When they started teaching about the plan of salvation he couldn't help but feel that what he was hearing was true. As a child he told me that he had always felt that there was a lot more to life than just life here on earth. He immediately felt the spirit when the missionaries taught him about the premortal existence and eternal life. He was challenged to read the BOM and he did so in about 2 months. He asked Heavenly Father if it was true and he knew that he needed to join the church. He knew it was true and he couldn't deny it.

It was so touching to hear his personal witness of the truth! I loved talking to him and asking him questions about the Gospel. It's amazing what an impact the truth of this marvelous Gospel can have in people's lives. It is so true. :)I got to meet his wife as well because we sang for them later on. They were both so happy and beaming with joy from the spirit they felt in Nauvoo.

Right after I left the couple, I walked into the visitor's center and saw two little girls sitting on the statue of the first vision. I followed the prompting to walk over and start talking to them. Their names wer Milea and Lindsey and I asked them what they liked about Nauvoo etc. (Milea is 3 and Lindsey is 5) MIlea then looked up at the statue and pointed to Jesus and Heavenly Father, "Which is which?" she asked. I was able to explain the first vision to the two little girls. It was such a tender experience and they were so dang adorable! I love talking to little children and connecting with them spiritually. Their hearts are the softest and the most open to the love of God. I asked what their favorite primary song was and they both said without hesitation, "I am a child of God." "Yes you are!" I replied, "And He loves you more than you could ever imagine!!".


What a wonderful experience! I love those little girls. I feel like Heavenly Father has magnified a gift he has given me here in Nauvoo.... to connect with children. I have met so many little kids as well as young adults and teenagers who I have just 'clicked' with. GAH I love this work!!!!!! I love being a missionary!!!!!!!!!

Things Of The Spirit

A short little story. There was someone in a wheel chair that obviously had some disabilities. Throughout our show, high hopes and river boats, I would catch glimpses of him turning his head toward the show and listening to our performance. Elder Camp later told us about this young man. He was apparently wheeled up against the far wall to start with and Elder Camp asked if they wanted him in a different spot so he could enjoy the show. They told him that it did not matter because he was deaf and blind. Elder Camp said that he would at least be able to feel the spirit, and so he was moved to a better spot. This young man would turn his head towards the stage every song, and than after the song he would put his head back where it was before. I would have never guessed that this child of God was deaf or blind. I know that our spirits on stage were singing and dancing for his. I know that there is a special feeling in what we do here and in the gospel that everyone can feel. Sometimes we are just blinded by what we see that it gets in the way of what is at the core of every person that has ever or will ever walk the earth. The spirit of Christ.

I'm Here!

Hi. Or should I say G'day.
Haha that was really lame.

My name is Elder Striplin and I'm from Brisbane, Australia. I haven't found the time to write on this blog yet but I'm so happy and glad to be able to write now.

I guess I'll write about how I got here to Nauvoo, serving as a Young Performing Missionary. Last year I finished a production of the musical HAIRPSRAY in early July. After this production the director offered me to play a role in the musical ALL SHOOK UP in November of 2013. I accepted. Shortly after our Prophet announced that young men may now serve a mission from the age of 18. Having just turned 18 and already signed a contract for this show I felt tied down and not knowing what I was going to do. My mum (it's spelt with a U in Australia) heard about the unique calling of a Young Performing Missionary and it sparked my interest. So I made an audition video and filled out the application and sent it off. As soon as I sent it there was no doubt in my heart that is where I wanted to be for the summer (well winter). It was the perfect opportunuity to serve my Heavenly Father until I was available to put my papers in for my proselyting mission.

After emails, skype calls and an absolutely wonderful trip to Utah I was extended the call to serve as a Young Performing Missionary in Nauvoo, Illinois. I've never been more excited/nervous for an experience to happen in my life. But needless to say I have absolutely LOVED every second of my time here in Nauvoo. I've grown tremendously in spirit and in knowledge. I've never felt as close to the Lord as I do now since I've been here. I know that I am here for a reason and there is no other place in the world I would rather be than serving here in Nauvoo. I love Nauvoo, it's now my home away from home.


I'm so grateful for Nauvoo and the beautiful spirit it contains. I can testify that this sacred city can change people. It has changed me and I love it. 

Love

On Monday we did the Trail of Hope in the evening, as usual, and I was a "company captain" (leading a group through the vignettes). I had quite a few children in my group and a few were rather rambunctious, so I invited one of the little girls who seemed quite disengaged to come stand by me. She soon grabbed my hand and held it most of the way down the trail, and she engaged a bit as well. It was a beautiful experience, and... oh, love is just a beautiful thing. Feeling it and giving it and receiving it and being surrounded by it. So much of life is occupied in the quest therefore. But as a dear friend mentioned in a recent email, when we open ourselves up to love a little more and trust a little more, we can accomplish great good. It's just hard not to get hurt in the process... What a balancing act this life is.


Love someone today -- maybe even someone that's hard to love.

The Gospel Is Simple

Wooh! Finally finding a moment to sit down and add some of my experience of beautiful Nauvoo here on the blog! Many people ask me if this mission is what I thought it would be. Whats different? Is it harder or easier than you expected? To be honest, this mission is completely different from what I thought it would be. I am very tired. Mostly from running around all day without much sleep but it's the most fascinating thing because every time I feel like I'm going to crash, a new fire is lit in me. The advesary is working like none other to bring down this work. Many have been sick and difficulties come up left and right. But I can honestly say I've never met a group of people that can handle a situation or forget themselves and go to work as quickly as my little YPM family can. I love these people.


Something that has struck me about the gospel lately that I absolutley love, is the purity and simplicity of it. This world is one of confusion, loudness, and chaos, especially right now. Yet as I go to the temple, or even sit outside and look at the beautiful sunset across the mississippi, I realize that everything is much more simple and precious than we realize sometimes. Because of this, I want to share my simple testimony. This gospel is so happy. It is a way for us to learn and grow in this life. A way for us to learn to love and work. And it is a way for us to be with our families in the eternities. My family is the single most precious thing to me, and the gift of being sealed to them forever is more than anything I could ever ask for. Christ came. He suffered and atoned for each of us. And He is risen again. He is coming again :) I cannot wait for the day I get to kneel at his feet. I love this gospel and bear my witness of it in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

Press On, Ye Saints Of God

You know those times where you want to sit down and write something profound, but you are just so content with life, no words are in your head aside from the constant sigh of joy in your heart?  That is how I feel right now.  Everything is just...good.

I have been studying a lot, both in Church history and in the Book of Mormon (which, I guess, is still technically Church history), about Saints of God who had to endure trials and persecution.  We certainly don't encounter much persecution here in Nauvoo, but the trials have sure been coming on strong in our group.

Something I have noticed is that there are really two different instances where a group of God's children suddenly encounter great influxes of hardships.  (1) When they fall away from the truths they know to be true and become an indolent and idolatrous society, and (2) When they come together in the faith, their hearts "knit together as one," living in a Zion community under Christ.  Why?  Well, the answer to #1 seems obvious.

I am so grateful for trials.  In a more eternal perspective, hardships are really some of our very greatest blessings we can be given.  It is in persecution that our loyaly to the Lord is polished, in sickness that our hope in His promises is secured, in confusion that our trust in the word of God blossoms, and in abandonment that our relationship with the Savior becomes more tightly sealed.  Heavenly Father allows trials to come into our lives when we have brought ourselves in a position to come even closer to Him.

Because of this, I have come to understand that Zion is a place of trial.  With so many people growing and working together to build up the Lord's Kingdom on the earth with pure, humble, and consecrated hearts, that entire group is in a position to be spiritually lifted up to God, similar to the physical miracle that happened in the city of Enoch.  The only way this can happen is through trial.  With this understanding, we come to know that misfortunes and tragedies are actually a sign that we are living right in the sight of God!

I was particularly touched yesterday, as we received news of our greatest trial yet this summer.  Just hours ago, the step-father of our very own Elder Foster (who plays in the band) was killed in a plane crash, and his younger brother was severely injured, in some ways that may be irreversable in this life.  When we found out at the end of a long and very successful day, it was as Elder Foster bore his hopeful and powerful testimony that because of temples on earth today, families will be reunited after this life, and that the resurrection will truly come to pass and physically perfect every one of us.  What made the greatest impact on me, was that a band of 46 disciples of Christ, directly after hearing about this great cause for mourning, stood up with tears in their eyes and aching hearts, and sang praises to God.  As we lifted our voices together and sang, "We gather in His holy name to thank Him and to bless Him," my spirit was so full of peace that I wept.

That is faith.  That is Zion and hope and charity and diligence and purity and power.  To find ourselves in the midst of affliction and sing in gratitude to our Lord... It was too sacred and too godly to accurately pen.

"Thus did Alma teach his people, that every man should love his neighbor as himself, that there should be no contention among them. . . .Therefore they did watch over their people, and did nourish them with things pertaining to righteousness. . . .And it came to pass that they did multiply and prosper exceedingly. . .and they built a city, which they called the city of Helam.  Nevertheless the Lord seeth fit to chasten his people; yea, he trieth their patience and their faith.  Nevertheless - whosoever putteth his trust in him the same shall be lifted up at the last day."   (Mosiah 23:15-22)


"And now I would that ye should be humble, and be submissive and gentle; easy to be entreated; full of patience and long-suffereing; being temperate in all things; being diligent in keeping the commandments of God at all times; asking for whatsoever things ye stand in need, both spiritual and temporal; always returning thanks unto God for whatsoever things ye do receive."   (Alma 7:23)

Sunday, June 23, 2013

This Work is Great

Because 12 Elders live together and we work in a cast double that size, unity is vital in all that we do.  To be honest it can be a bit exhausting--but the blessings of learning and loving that many people are copious.  It requires much prayer in all we do.  While the aesthetics of our shows are important, the Spirit is vital.  With a string of sicknesses we have been dealing with a lot of last minute adjustments that at the time seemed close to unreasonable...however, they were a blessing in disguise. On the same day a sister had heat stroke, another was losing her voice, an elder had a parasite, and another Elder nausea... a miracle happened.  We forgot ourselves completely and concentrated on them and filling in their parts.  It was one of our most powerful days.  It also happened to be our hump day here in Nauvoo which caused us to ponder a lot about all we need to accomplish while we're here.

Working with the teenagers that come visit here rocks.  The youth conferences are always organized to prepare these people for awesome experiences and I'm grateful to be a part of it.

Susan Easton Black came and did a fireside last Sunday.  How incredible. I applaud her for using her knowledge of church history as a tool for the Lord.  She discussed the 35 quorums of seventy in Nauvoo (of which Jeremiah Leavitt--Sarah S. Leavitt's husband, our ancestor) was part.  To paint a picture of what kind of men they were, she went through the qualifications of being a seventy: Willingness to sacrifice their lives, always willing to keep the commandments, endowed with power, stay true to the church.  "What are we willing to give," she asked.  "I will give my obedience", she continued.

We had a very sobering moment this week--we found out that the step-father of an Elder here with us was killed in an airplane accident yesterday.  Like a rock he stood up in front of us and bore his testimony of eternal families.  We were all so impressed by his strength.  It has been a moment for us to all rally together.

This work is great!



Friday, June 21, 2013

Happiness is a Choice!

This last week I had a great experience on the trail of hope. It was starting to rain and I was supposed to be playing my violin for Eliza R. Snow. I was nervous that it would be so bad I couldn't play. (recap - the Trail of hope is performed outside) And that made me sad because I knew that there was someone on the Trail who NEEDED that experience. So I prayed so hard with 100% faith that if I took out my violin it would not get wet. So. I did, and even though my body was getting wet. Not a bit of rain got on my violin. It was as if Angels were holding umbrellas over my head.  It was a miracle and testimony to me of how much these performances that we are doing are really touching those who see them.

This week we also ended up putting the "cheerleader" audition (Egg skit) together. It is so so so funny! Loved it so much! The crowd went nuts. It was great! I am so blessed just for being here in this city. The spirit is so strong and I know that my ancestors are here helping me be a light to those who come here for a testimony strengthening. 

Earlier this week I had an opportunity to walk out into the middle of the wheat field that is on parley st. I went out into the middle where I could see the temple radiating up on the bluff. I know that this is holy ground that we live on. the sacrifices that were made here made it so. My testimony is strengthened every day just by knowing that I have the choice to be happy and to be a positive influence for the other people in my life!

Choose Joy

With all the busyness of the past couple weeks we were told today that this is our last slow week coming up before things get busy! Wow! I can only imagine what its going to be like doing more in a day than we already do, but I know it will all be wonderful and I'm very excited.  We've been implementing a few changes to our shows recently which has been fun because we get to see the show get even better and I can't wait to someday see what the impacts of this work will be.  I know from stories about Nauvoo and missionary work in general that the impacts will be so much farther reaching than we can imagine which only makes it all the more important that we "serve with all our heart, might, mind, and strength, that [we] may stand blameless before God at the last day."

The BYU Folk Dancers have been here and they did a fireside for us last week about the scripture "Man is that they might have joy" and a few people gave talks and they sang some songs all centered around that theme.  This is one of my favorite scriptures personally because it tells us so much about our purpose which is to find Joy.  I think there is a difference between the Joy talked about in this verse and just simply being happy which important to note.  Joy to me has more of a lasting, or abiding sense to it as opposed to just momentary happiness. That is why even though there are times in our lives where we certainly aren't happy we can still feel of the joy that comes from our knowledge and hope that we receive from the gospel, our families, and our covenants with the Lord.  With that definition in mind our purpose is to be able to have that joy.  The talks in sacrament meeting today talked about the commandments and how the commandments are a sign of the Lord's love for us and that they are intended to bring us joy.  Some look at the commandments as restrictive, limiting the experiences, and our choices in this life.  That is a false statement because each of us has agency and the choice is forever ours to make, however eternal laws have eternal consequences that are unchanging, much like the law of gravity doesn't change just because we don't want to believe in it, if we then jump off a cliff, we will still fall.  So getting to a point now, our Heavenly Father understands what these eternal consequences are so He warns us and gives commandments so we can safely avoid those cliffs we could fall off of physically, emotionally, or spiritually, and he never takes away our agency, we always have the choice to do as we please, but if we choose to go contrary to the commandments of God, we are not free to avoid the consequences. So choose to keep the commandments, choose joy, and choose that path that leads home to Heaven where we can live with our Heavenly Father and receive a fullness of joy.

What The Lord Commands

This week, I got more violently sick than I have been in a very long time.   ....Let me tell you about it.

So, just previously, I had been worried about all the different sicknesses that were causing various sisters to drop out of performances for a day or two.  I had been reading a lot about faith and obedience, and every part of me believes that if the Lord has called you to do something, you can do it, no matter what seems to make it impossible at the moment.  I had also been feeling fairly ill, and Elder Wortley told me that if I ever wasn't feeling up to it, I could tell him, and they'd arrange to plan to perform without me.  But there was no way I could do that!  This is different from a normal theatrical production!  I have been called to be on stage and perform these shows and relay this message for Him.  I knew that no matter how nauseous I felt, I could get up there and dance, because it wasn't just my own natural strength I would rely on.  I was worried that perhaps we as a group were not getting the message strongly enough that we could push through anything to perform, because the Lord asked us to.

Well, the next day, early in the morning, I found myself puking (I won't tell you where I threw up first, it was embarrassing) in a succession of purges that just refused to stop.  I was in the bathroom at home the whole time the rest of my cast was out walking the streets doing Nauvoo Singers.  I found myself unconscious, and I awoke just in time to make it to call time for High Hopes and River Boats.  Now was my time to prove to the Lord that I really believed all those things I had been pondering the past couple days.  I honestly couldn't imagine myself on the stage, but I knew that I had been called to be there.  I was ready to step on that stage and brace myself for whatever miracle might occur.  When I got there and watched everyone preparing for the show, I just kept feeling worse and worse.  I was paling at the idea of getting up and putting my costume on.  Sister Camp came and talked with me for a little bit and told me that I needed to make a decision fast.  I decided to go pray about it.

Well, I should have done that from the beginning, because after a good ten-minute wrestle with the Lord, I got a definite commandment to go back home.  While I was confused because I felt like He had first and foremost called me to be on stage, I also knew that what He had now asked of me was to go home and rest and let the other missionaries do what they needed to do without me.  So I went home.  And I slept the rest of the day.

I have learned so much from that experience.  First of all, that I need to be in constant communication with my Heavenly Father, particularly about His desires for my day-to-day actions, even if I think that--by virtue of my set calling--I already know what He wants me to do.

But more so, I learned about Zion.  I learned that when we allow our hearts to become knit together as one (all being knit to the same heart: the Savior's), He can form us into a single unit, all working together perfectly, like a Swiss Time Piece.  The thing is, because it is directed and managed by God Himself, if a spring falls out, He manages to get a gear to do the spring's job too until the spring is back.  In a Zionistic community, we are not the same.  We will not have the same strengths or talents or knowledge, but it will not matter.  We do not have to be the same to be one.  I have learned that in the fallen world we live in today, it is necessary to say as Nephi said,

"I will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for I know that the Lord giveth no commandment unto the children of men, save He shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which He commandeth them."

However, once we can come together as Saints of God, He is able to change the very way we work and live, and instead we can have the relief of saying,

"We will go and do the things which the Lord hath commanded, for we know that the Lord giveth no commandment unto the children of men, save He shall prepare a way for them that they may accomplish the thing which He commandeth them."

I know that so much of the reason that Christ's "yoke is easy, and [His] burden is light" is because it is no longer a load that is lifted alone.  We all do it.  Together.

I have great faith in the Lord, and that I can rely on Him through any of my trials.  This week He has taught me that part of relying on Him is being willing to be just as reliant on His servants.

I am grateful to know that there are so many of those servants all around me.  I will do all I can every day to be one of them.

Sunday, June 16, 2013

It's All Worth It

Today we had the privilege of a personal tour of the Mansion House and Red Brick store by Lachlan Mackay (the head of the Community of Christ Historical Sites) ...his knowledge of Nauvoo and the prophet Joseph were remarkable.  As a group of missionaries, we sang our two signature songs "Nauvoo" and "Invocation" in the top of the Red Brick store where the Prophet administered the first endowments and formed the Relief Society.  While the building was not the original building, I believe the Lord still finds it to be hallowed space.  Truly a tremendous experience.

We notice certain families that will follow us throughout our six daily shows.  One such family was the Knudson Family.  After the show, I started talking with the Mom...after hearing of their exhausting but entertaining week long RV ride across the US, I felt prompted to ask her what the greatest thing she has taken away while here in Nauvoo is.  She looked up at me, went silent and let out a big sigh.  She said something to the effect of, "I am so grateful I brought my kids with me. We have been so blessed that they have seen your examples.  We don't really know what our son is thinking when it comes to a mission and for him to see this side of the missionary work has been a blessing."  I was put back by her comment---we've been working so hard to make these shows and vignettes have meaning and to hear that they have had that kind of impact--makes it all worth it.

Each Life That Touches Ours For Good

I can't believe that its already been another week.  Sister Camp told us the count down to our last day today during preparation meeting and I was very upset.  I don't want this opportunity to end!  It truly has been such an amazing thing and I count my blessings every day to think that I could be here and receive all the blessings I have since coming here.  I've also had my eyes opened to a lot of the blessings that I had in my life before I came here.  I definitely count my family, my friends, and the Gospel of Jesus Christ among the highest of those blessings.

My sister is probably going to be extremely jealous because one of our guests was her best friend Hanna's mom! It was really neat to meet her for the first time and wonder what the odds were of such a meeting seeing as they now live across the country from us and just happened to be visiting in Nauvoo.  She came up to me and told me I looked familiar and asked if I knew her son which I had known who he was from high school, but then looking at my name tag she made the connection to my sister and got really excited.  Its amazing to see how the Lord blesses us to cross paths like that and just goes to show that even though this was a friendly crossing, who knows what people will be placed in our paths here that we are meant to touch, uplift, and inspire.  We probably won't know in this life, but its still such a privilege to know that we are instruments in his hands planting seeds in the hearts of many.  I know that none of it goes to waste.  How could it when you consider the worth of souls.  Doctrine and Covenants 18:10 reads "Remember the worth of souls is great in the sight of God."  the section goes on later saying "If it so be that you should labor all of your days in crying repentance of this people and bring save it should be one soul unto me how great shall be your joy with him in the kingdom of my father."  This shows that the Lord loves each of us so much and we can know that He wants us to be happy.  I have a firm belief that if just a single one of God's children would have accepted the Atonement of Jesus Christ He still would have gone through with it.  And I wouldn't be surprised if He would have gone through with it, even if none of us accepted it, because He loves us all so deeply He wouldn't be content unless He gave us EVERY opportunity.  Its miraculous and I know its true. So wherever you are, whatever you're doing, whatever you've done in your life, however low you might feel,  He LOVES YOU. He loves you completely and so deeply we can't fully comprehend it.  Its a miracle in the latter-days and I know it is true. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

When You Come To Nauvoo

Let me tell you a little bit about the unique traits of Nauvoo.

This is a city where thousands of people of all different creeds and histories have come through at some point seeking refuge from persecution and filled with a hope for a better life.  This had-been swamp is a thriving little town...with a very different feel about it.  A feeling of security.  A feeling that you have jumped out of the normal hustle and bustle of life.  A feeling a friendship.  A feeling that you can restore lost hopes and plans you've had before.  A feeling a peace.

In the part of Nauvoo that we experience most (that owned by The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints), there are many reasons for this feeling.  An untold number of miracles have happened in this spot.  This town was built up specifically so the Saints of the Lord could worship Him and learn all that He desired of them and for them.  Every building was built with the intent of serving Christ!  The people here gave everything they had...everything....to establish His Church on the earth again.  They gave no thought for themselves save it were the essential elements that kept them moving and breathing.  Everything else was outward, for their fellow man and for God.  This became a sacred escape from sin...almost a temple made up of a town.  And then, shortly after their proper (and glorious) temple was erected, the prophet given them of God was murdered, and they were driven west, across the entire country, outside the U.S. boundaries, on foot, with handcarts to carry what little they could.  And they did it willingly, because they knew it was a necessary sacrifice for the building up of Christ's Kingdom.

But the past can only transform the feeling of a piece of land so much.

Today, this stretch of historical ground is filled with hundreds of missionaries.  Men and women (almost every one of them senior citizens) that have had hands laid upon their head setting them apart for the service of God in spreading the good news of the Atonement of Jesus Christ in any way they are able.  Hundreds of people here who have dedicated their lives to their Heavenly Father, who understand the blessings and power of obedience and faith and charity and hope and virtue and prayer and the word of God.  Their every action is to draw others closer to Christ.  With that kind of powerful living happening in such a great concentration in this city, it is enshrouded with the Spirit.  We live within what the scriptures often refer to as a "cloud of light."  It is generated by sacrifice and willingness to love God more than oneself.

So, I must warn you:

Do not come to Nauvoo as a tourist.  This is a hard task I charge you with, because that is exactly what this place is set up for.  There are tours you will take, histories you will learn, shows to see, and pamphlets to steal.  We are designed to take in tourists.  But I have learned as I have stayed here that tourists only get about 30% of what is available here, if that.

This city is a sanctuary for the Holy Ghost.  The glass we look through darkly, as Paul describes our experience on earth, is not so dark in Nauvoo.  If there was ever a place you could go to catch a glimpse of a vision the Lord has for you that you cannot now see, it is here.  Rather than walking into our historic sites as a tourist, walk in as a student of Christ.  Rather than coming to learn history and see artifacts, come to learn spiritual truths and see the ministering of angels.  I would strongly encourage you to fast and pray before approaching your visit here.  Ask for guidance, strength, and miracles for yourself and for your family.  You will find it here.  I promise you that there are doctrinal gems that the Spirit can teach you personally, if you will seek them.

As young performing missionaries, our performances are not merely for entertainment, and our songs are not merely to impress.  We are here to testify boldly and clearly that Jesus is the Christ, and that in Him we can find joy.  We are here to proclaim to all who will listen that there is a living oracle on the earth today that receives revelation for the entire world directly from God, and his name is Thomas S. Monson.  We declare with every dance step that in the Book of Mormon are the true and living words of our Savior, that will fill anyone who reads it with more life than they have ever lived.

We will do everything we can to prick the hearts of the tourists....but please, don't you be one of them.

Not Even a Cough

On Friday night there were approximately 400 people lined up to come through the Trail of Hope. It had been a very long day of performances and my voice was giving out from the bronchitis. I was terrified because it was the night I needed to sing a hymn as Elisa Leavitt. I said a prayer with Sister Porter who was playing my mother that night, Sarah Leavitt. As we knelt in prayer and asked for the help from the Lord that I needed pretty badly that night especially... we felt peace and knew that it would be alright. I was having a cough attack, my ears and eyes were itching from allergies, and I was sneezing like a banchee. However, each time a group would come through I would clear my throat to sing and the hoarseness of my voice would disappear and just when I thought I needed to cough or sneeze, I wouldn't. Gosh... it was a miracle. Truly! Immediately after we would finish singing and the group would move along to the next vignette I would have another cough attack and blow my lungs out haha. What a tender mercy from the Lord. The enabling power of the Atonement is truly amazing... I cannot thank my Lord and Savior enough for allowing me to bear my testimony that night without sickness affecting my message. This work is much too important... the messages of the Saints touch people's souls in a very special way here. Sickness or no sickness, the Lord will always find a way to spread his love and Gospel. It's amazing to see how much the work is growing today in the church.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Become as Little Children

One of my favorite experiences has been hearing the little kids come up to me and remember me from one of the shows that they saw sometime throughout the day.  It's so neat to know that we make an impact, but at the same time it shows the responsibility we have because of the impact that we make.  I also learned from the children on Trail of Hope one night as I was working as company captain.  Some of the kids were being talkative and noisy so I was worried that the others in the group would be bothered, but they didn't seem to be.  I had the thought come to me about the pioneer children who had left Nauvoo, and how they would have likely had the same enthusiasm, curiosity, and just plain child-like happiness about them as they walked down Parley Street.  They wouldn't have understood the reasons for leaving, or the hardships they would face as they traveled. At that time they only would have known that they got to go on an adventure.  They would have been so full of faith, trusting in their parents and not concerned so much with the things that would be left behind as they traveled towards a new home.  I took a lesson from this about how each of us can look at our Earthly journey the same way.  The Lord has prepared a new home for us where we will find peace and safety to live the way we want to, surrounded by the people we love, free of fear.  The trail will be hard, but the reward at the end will be worth it.  We can rely on Heavenly Father to provide for our needs, but we have to be the ones who walk each step of the way just as the Pioneer children did. They didn't know where they were going, they only new the direction they were supposed to take.  Its different for us, though we haven't seen our Heavenly destination, we do know the path and have great guides to bring us safely there.

1st Week of Miracles

This week has been so wonderful! I am being constantly reminded that the Lord showers tender mercies among us. We have truly been blessed. I am 100% sure that the Nauvoo Performing mission is the only place in the whole entire world that you could get 20 actors and actresses to learn, rehearse, polish, and open 5 full fledged musicals and vignettes, in such a short time. I am constantly in awe of the help that we receive on a daily basis from ones who are beyond the veil. I had the opportunity this past week to go to the Family History Center here in Navuoo and more particular, I have been thinking a lot about my Grandpa Davis and my Great Grandpa Terry. I had a very special experience on the trail of hope on Friday where I was almost sure that I felt them there with me testifying of those who have gone on before. Miracles happen in this sacred city. I have a very strong testimony of that. These next couple months will be ones of great peace as we full-heatedly jump into charity and humility.

I have to share this funny story: One of the vignettes that we do is called, Youth of Zion. In one part of it, I am supposed to hurtle a half fence that is actually not really a fence, but more of a wooden road block so cars don't park there. Anyway, as I was about to hurtle this fence for our vignette, I started to  jump and then somehow my foot got caught wrong and I totally fell flat on my back in the middle of a performance. Pretty humiliating. But, we all had a good laugh. I threw in a couple of good improv lines and it went over fine. Haha. 

I close with a Gaelic blessing: 
May those that love us, love us. 
And those that don't love us, may God turn their hearts.
And if he doesn't turn their hearts, may he turn their ankles.
So we will know them, by their limping.    

Support and Hope on our Journey

We've been blessed richly this week with great spiritual guidance and support.  Sister Spittle got strep throat and couldn't perform with us all day Friday (I told her that her present to me for my birthday was to get well) so we had to re-choreograph the dances and take her lines.  That happened much sooner in the season this time than last time I was here. :P We have been supported by angels as we perform with half the cast very ill with coughs and congestion which makes any singing very difficult. I believe fully that we are helping to bring souls to Christ, and as we are humble we will not fail. Thinking back over the week, I can only remember one brief period of time when I was not 100% engaged in every performance, and I regret not having done so. I think that Heaven is pleased with our efforts though, I'm grateful to be able to do better this next week.